It Gets Better

When I was about 12 years old and still in middle school I was a pretty normal kid. I attended a private Catholic School, was on the volleyball team and got pretty decent grades. I was also the son of a captain in the National Guard and church going mother. I was the oldest of the three kids and I was the man of the house when my parents were not around or at work. It was about that same time when I realized my parents were silently going through a divorce and I was pressured to step in where I could. But above all that pressure there was something else that was weighing heavy on me.

I was coming to terms with my sexuality – and that I was gay.

The next few years were tough. Upon starting high school – my parents enrolled me into an all-boys private catholic school and I went face to face with the politics of being different even if I didn’t know exactly what that difference was. To the school bullies- it was because I didn’t like PE, that I didn’t play football or that I wasn’t smoking pot in the bathroom. To them any deviation from what they thought was “normal”- was gay. So there for since I hated football, always skipped PE and didn’t smoke- I was labeled gay. The irony was that I always had a girlfriend and always showed up to school dances with a gorgeous gal in tow. But- somehow, there was always something for them to pick on or to tease me about.

No matter what the mockery of the day was- I was ultimately teased that I was gay.

Fast forward to a KFC in Southern California and there I am “coming out” to my best gal pal and college roommate Stacie. In the months that followed I came out to my sister, my mom and then the world. I was gay and it was the most exhilarating moment of my life!

The best part was- I was still doing everything that I wanted to do- being the person that I wanted to be and living the life that I wanted to live. That so called “different” part of me faded away into the shadows of the man that I was becoming and the career that I was beginning to focus on. I was living life on my own terms. Those bullies in high school were a thing of the past and had no control over the young man I was growing into, a young man that would make any mother and father proud.

The recent suicides of teenagers across the United States, has saddened my heart beyond any form of explanation. As a writer I feel it comes easy to me to write and share my feelings – but on this particular subject- my heart is heavy and I find myself speechless. No child should ever have taken their lives because of teen bullying.

But now- like many who have come out to support. I am here to say “Things get better”.

They honestly do.

Against all my odds of being raised on a small island, a catholic family and the son of a military father- I survived that difficult time in my life. I didn’t let anyone get in my way of being a an older brother, an uncle to two amazing nephews, a writer, an artist, and all the other things in my life that I cherish the most and hold dear to my heart.

I never for one second allowed a bully to make me feel that my life was any less valuable as a human being. Whenever I was in doubt- I talked to family and to friends- and when that wasn’t enough- I prayed.

Weather the advice was small or large from friends. What was always so encouraging to me was seeing the sunrise the next morning- especially after a heavy night of thinking. I knew that with that sun- came a brand new day, another day to live and to make my dreams come true.

For anyone who has children- please take a moment to talk to your kids about teen bullying and all these recent deaths. Not only because they were gay- or perceived as being gay- but because it is our duty to teach our children to embrace peoples differences and to live a life filled with basic human dignity and respect for others.

For anyone who is going through a tough time and your feeling lost- please know there are people you can talk to just a phone call away. If you ever want to talk to me- email me here. I know you feel like things are hard, hopeless or too dark for you too see. But trust me when I say this- There is light at the end of the tunnel- and most importantly... love. Hang in there. We are here to help you get through this.

Call The Trevor Project at 1-866-4-U-TREVOR (866-488-7386) or visit the Trevor Project online at

www.thetrevorproject.org

It Gets Better… I promise.

David

Gay is the New Black

Every now and then I get that curious itch in my side and wander the "missed connections" category section of Craigslist.

I often think that maybe- just maybe- that love of my life has crossed paths with me and was too shy to say anything. Then, because he just cant stop thinking of me- he hurls himself towards the computer to write a witty yet sweet blurb about how we crossed paths and hes been searching for me ever since then.

Admit it- you've done this a few times. Its fun.

More often than not - I'm more entertained by the other random encounters that other people have - and where they took place.

"saw you at the stop light at Robertson and Santa Monica- you were driving the Porsche, I was in the green Toyota. We crossed eyes- had a connection. If this is you- what color tank top was I wearing?"

Yes- the gay fairytale indeed. Did they find each other? Did they have a connection? Do they both read the "Missed Connections"?

As I continued my search for my own personal Knight In Shining Craigslist- I came across a posting I had never encountered.

"Straight Guy Seeks Gay Friend- Strictly Platonic" ( yes, I read those too )

The posting continued to explain that this mid thirties writer in LA, straight and gay friendly, has come in and out of friends- and has now realized how none of them have ever been gay.

He continued to explain that he is not homophobic, and is quite social with gay men at work ( hes a writer ) but - for some reason or another- he hasn't had any personal friends- that are gay. Hence- he is seeking some new ones.

WHAT.

THE.

FUCK!?

I find myself overly entertained- happy, and concerned for our species. ( insert chuckle here )

After a history of suffering inequality, shame and many countless seasons of Will & Grace- its official. We have become the ultimate accessory.

Have Straight men now discovered the "Power of The Gay"?

For years we have been the arm candy to many Single Women, Fag Hags, Gorgeous models, Celebrities and Reality Show stars- but now - things have reached a brand new high... the acquiring of "The Alpha Male Mate".

It all makes sense I guess.  I have long been the best wing man to many of my timid straight guy friends - and since girls love gay guys- its an easy transition for any "straight" going for the kill on a Friday night. Its like holding a litter of French Bulldog puppies in front of an all girls school... at lunch. Done and done.

But what do we get in return? Social acceptance or wrongful social positioning? Gay men are not accessories- we are people too! We must be careful to have the right intentions when befriending someone. After all... I wouldn't be friends with a hot Blondie girl just because she would attract other cute gay guys would I? Or Have I?

So to the dear seeker of gay companionship- be warned. You have a great gift- should you find a cool gay friend to be part of your socially incomplete circle of friends. Treat him kind- always stand up for him and use your new wing man powers with caution- they are great!

And oh yeah- Don't feed him too much alcohol after midnight or else you'll be back to square one...

trying to get some drunk bitch off you that is trying to give you dirty drunk blow jobs.

cheers.

RE IN VENTION (4G)

Goodness it seems like forever since I wrote anything. In the last month I celebrated my 34th birthday (All hail to the Virgos) and officially started to furninsh my new but- old apartment- FINALLY. I have been in sort of a thought process- of what I wanted to do next. Well- now that that shiz is all done and said- things are really starting to kick into gear.

I have have been working hard to finish my book- but also have some other things I am trying to bang out before the end of the year. So keep your fingers crossed for me and accept my most humble apology for being so quiet lately.

The flood gates are about to bust open!!!

Prop 8- A Call For Better Gays

August 4th 2010 will go down in history as one of the defining moments in the gay civil rights movement.

U.S. District Judge Vaughn Walker ruled that Prop 8 ( which only allowed marriage to be between a man and a woman ) was unconstitutional.

Walker went on to rule that " Proposition 8 fails to advance any rational basis in singling out gay men and lesbians for denial of a marriage license. Indeed the evidence shows Proposition 8 does nothing more than enshrine in the California constitution the notion that opposite sex couples are superior to same sex couples."

These words (and his ruling) were quite validating to me - an enormous sigh of relief. As if I was hearing this for the first time from the mouth of Harvey Milk in the late 70's- telling me that Im "normal". That I too can engage in the act of ultimate commitment in love- and get married. That the world would recognize my union- and I like my straight counterparts- we would be equals.

What a simple concept. To be equal in love.

Later that day, I attended a "Celebration Rally" in West Hollywood . A couple hundred people gathered  in a small park to celebrate our huge victory and to hear words of inspiration "first"- as this defining moment in gay civil rights- happened before our eyes.

But what was louder than al the cheers and excitement - were the comments from two friends of mine. One of them sent me a text saying " I left to the bar cause the speeches were boring" and my other friend who was there with me was making jokes about how "the crowd sucked cause everyone was taken- and how hed rather be at the gym".

I felt rather beside myself.

How can our community still be apathetic- even in thick of all the action? Why wasnt the crowd bigger?

Now- to be fair- not everyone is an activist, or into politics, or hell- even caring. But I think its time that as gay men we take a closer look at the image we convey to not only ourselves- but to eachother as well.

Like any culture- we have history and a struggle- though filled with hate, discrimination and inequality- everyday someone out there is fighting to make our lives a better one. So that the future of our community can be less and less of what it used to be- and a more of one filled with love and equality.

How can we do this? The answer is simple- by supporting the community. By showing up to a small rally- you not only celebrate our victory, you celebrate the people who did the tireless work for you and your future. By donating to a charity- time or money supports those who cant do it all. And most importantly- being the best example of who you are for the community. Because- no matter where you are- you are a representative of who we are, where we are going and who we have yet to be.

Leap of Faith or Fall to Death?

In life- we are faced with many challenges. Often times its with our careers, our realtionships, and our family. More often than not- those challenges present a crossroad to which we must choose a direction.

Do I choose a college on the east or west coast?

Do I want to have a baby?

Do I quit my job to follow my dreams?

Do I wanna get married?

Do I want to end my relationship?

These are many examples of some key decisons that we have had to make- or will have to make in our lives. The answer to those questions will have a profound effect on us forever.

But- before any of those decisions are made there is the... moment.  The moment that you are truely convinced to go with your gut instinct, trust the divine power of The Universe and choose Door A from Door B.The moment that you decide to take the "Leap of Faith".

But how often are we brave enough to choose The Road Less Travelled?

Not many people will ever be brave enough to do this- or are even comfortable thinking about the possibility of change. They will be stuck in a dead end job instead of going after thier dreams, they will doubt thier love and never propose and they will stay in the small town instead of leaving to educate in a big city.

If we look back at all the times that we have made big decisions based on a leap of faith- one can see that these are inspiring moments. Not just for us personally- but also for for the world. What would life be like if Scientists, Policticians, Activists and Educators- feared following that voice from within that said- "This is crazy and has never been done before- BUT I must do it!" Our advancements in life, technology and education would be simple, uninspiring and mediocore.

We must continue to challenge ourselves to never fear decision and take MANY "Leaps of Faith". If we trust the Universe- we will become fearless. The Universe will never fail in bringing you happiness and success. Afterall- dont we all deserve to have great things happent to us in life? Would you ever say to anyone "I dont deserve anything better than what I already have?"

NO!

Then allow yourself to make decisions based on DESERVING HAPPINESS and NOT fear! Take that leap of faith!

Those my friends... are words to live by.

Take a moment to be grateful

Big or small- there are so many things in life that one should be grateful for. Our family, the food we eat, the car we drive and the lover we come home to. The little things are almost always taken for granted. Be grateful- be thankful.

We get so caught up in life that we forget that- tomorrow is not guaranteed to us- and that we must live (and love) everyday like its our last.

So for just a second- call someone you love. Thank your best friend for being just that and try- just try to do somthing fearless today. After all- what do you really have to lose?

My bid for a show on Oprah

I will be the first to admit that June was a busy month. I didnt post a blog - not even once. The great news is that I was working on some pretty exciting things- one of them being that I submitted a video to Oprah.com for a spot on reality show for the new Oprah Winfrey Network- OWN!

I must admit I took my time on getting the idea and concept together- and two weeks into the online competition- I submitted my video. You had to ( In 3 minutes or less ) talk about your show concept and show the producers what makes you special- different! Why should you have your own show with Oprah! I went with what I knew best- love. My muse in life. I wanted to create a show that scoured the US for REAL love stories by real people- and share those with America. Im tired of seeing shows about Bachellors and cheaters and makeovers- I want to inspire people to fall in love again. Not only with great love stories- but with interviews with singers and songwriters about love- novelist's and heck even greeting card writers. I want to remind everyone that - Love does exist still.

Well- with the gusto and determination last seen on me in my college years as I ran for student body president- I submitted my video and launched an all out campaign to get votes and me onto this new show. I called in every favor to spread the word, Twittered, Facebooked, MySpaced, shook hands and kissed babies! I even got another story written about me in Pacific Daily News on Guam. I was a man determined. I was also a man with a sore throught!

In the end it was a noble journey ending with a little over 1000 votes and the blessings of many people wanting to see me succeed. That alone was gratifying. As of today- I sit and wait to see if I get a call- one of 40 people will be chosen to meet and draw the cast down to 10. I will update as soon as hear anything.

Wish me luck.

http://myown.oprah.com/audition/index.html?request=video_details&response_id=14148&promo_id=1

Levis.... Gets it

I saw this new ad from Levis & really felt like they got it right. This is beautiful.

From a creative and advertising point of view- it speaks to the consumer on so many different levels.

That in this time of recovery from a recession, in this time of repair- we can move forward. That- in our blood we have always been "workers" and now is the time to work again- to repair our great nation.

The iconic brand digs deep into its history to reclaim the industry that left it in the dust as the premium jeans market exploded. With a focus on classic style and timeless originals- and an ad campain that begs for emotional connection- Levi's really does get it right.

Bravo!

When Its OK to Be Selfish

When anyone usually gets caught up in a relationship- or the highs and lows usually associated with the start them- we often tend to forget about one very important person. You.

It wasn't too long ago that I was dramatizing over some dating dilemma to a good friend of mine- when in the middle of the the whole conversation she stops me and says- " This is the problem... We always forget to make ourselves the number one priority!"

Stunned... I sat there and listened to her wisdom and it got me to thinking about this dilemma.

When it comes to matters of the heart...Why do we forget to be selfish?

We forget about our career path, we forget about our dreams and hell- sometimes we even forget to walk the dog! What is it about a relationship that make us so- forgetful?


"BE SELFISH!"  she said

It was then that I looked back and realized that yes- I too have been guilty of the ultimate disrespect- forgetting to make myself the priority.

Don't misunderstand me- I am the first to need this advice and - yes- I am one of those who people (clearly) who gets caught up in the tangled web of infatuation. So this advice is mine to take and mine to give.

Being selfish means that you never forget about what you were doing prior to meeting this "Night In Shining Armor" or this "Playboy Centerfold"- you were a gym enthusiast, an artist, a writer, a movie goer and a Yogi. This person that comes into your life must be a compliment to, not a distraction.

More so, if your new lover is so distracting that they are inviting toxic behavior into your life, this is also not acceptable. If you never smoked a cigarette and all of a sudden you do now because of them- this is not staying true to who you are. You abandon the very core of your direction.Vices are contagious.

Ask your self one simple question at this moment.

"In my life- am I making the infatuation of another person the priority in my life?"

If the answer in anyway is yes- then you need to re-evaluate. Because, if for some reason, things don't go well (god forbid) in that relationship- you will be the only one responsible for that time spent.

Will you be able to say you life was still on track or will you look back and realize that you wasted precious time?

Be selfish. Nothing or nobody else matters when it come to your success in life.

Living Up To Ken

For all the times that we have conversations with women and young girls about body image and perception- you rarely (if any at all) hear anything about the struggles of gay men living in their own subculture.

Being gay is hard- and having to live up to the expectations of looking like a Ken Doll can be just as overwhelming (if not worse) than the pressure a woman feels to be thin.

Case in point- as a young gay man- You are required to fulfill three things in your gay life: 

1. Be A Super Model: 

Look gorgeous, have a muscular physique, be tanned, well  groomed and well.... just pretty. This of course means that you must go to the spa, you must enroll in the best gyms and your MUST do yoga! I don't know what it is with gays and Yoga. I love it- but I don't get why every gay "does yoga".

2. Be Uber Social: 

Attend every party that is appropriate, go out on all the best nights of the week ( which is all 7 days incidentally) Know as many people as possible ( this includes having shit loads of friends on Twitter & Facebook) and of course have some sort of connection to a undisclosed circle of celebrity friends. (this is clearly for name dropping purposes- I'm almost sure of it) On top of that all- you also have to be able to get into the best straight clubs as well- knowing everyone, everywhere. This makes you a triple threat gay.

3. Have Money:

Because you are gay and have no kids ( your dogs don't count ) you have an endless supply of cash flow. This allows you to buy the best clothes, go to the best restaurants, and buy those damn $10 drinks at your local gay hot spot. Not to mention you must be able to travel. If you are not worldly- you are not able to speak the the pros of the globe trotter! 

I'm sure this list could be longer- but I think those are the highlights. Growing up in a subculture where most of the public gay figures are "perfect" is intimidating. Porn Stars, Gay Icons, Celebrity Gays ( in or out of closet) are all prefect seedlings of the Ken Doll. 

It makes one wonder why most gay men come off as "shallow". Well - there you go. 

Here is my next thought- GOD FORBID you age or gain weight! What then? Bring you out to pasture and kill you? Gay men are brutal and I can only imagine the answer to that question. 

At some point we must revisit our values and our future. Though getting married and having kids is a right we fight for currently- I beg to ask why we really want to? We already treat a relationship over three months like three years- a sort of gay fable if your will. Will having children really bring joy to our lives- or will we just use them as another way to spend our money. Even worse- will we judge or disassociate ourselves from the "Nesting Gay" because they - don't party with us anymore? No wonder I feel that some gay guys don't like to associate themselves with the gay scene. 

We are creating division within our community. This is bad.

Only time will tell - how we grow and change. It is my hope that we become aware of our standards that we have set for our community and change the perception of what its like to be a gay man. You don't have to be anything but yourself to be an individual- and being gay shouldn't add anymore pressure on you to be anything but what you want to be.

Live the life that you want and not what others expect you to be.

Finding Your Voice

Over the last year I have spent allot of time here in LA really finding myself.

Living in a city of dreamers can be intimidating at times- but for me it has been quite inspiring and motivating. Waking up everyday to a sea of people who are here to become singers, actors, or musicians keeps me constantly wondering... "What am I passionate about?" One sunday- on a early morning walk to the farmers market it hit me.

I am a writer. End of story.

Over the last month I have been diligently working on my first novel. Writing has always been my passion and that I can never argue. So- with true determination I set out to find my voice in a sea of great novelists before me. So many questions needed to be answered before I got started: What kind of writer will I be? What will be my genre? Will I do fiction? Of all these questions,  I never questioned what I was going to write about ( that I knew from the start ) ... Love.  The highs and lows, the passion, the tears and the pain- Love is my thing. I can write about that till Im dead.

Now I wont divulge too much about the plot- or anything else about my writing except that- I am writing one heck of a story for all to appreciate. I promise.

Once I got started with the process- It all started to grow on me organically. There was so much passion, so much drive and so much thought spilling out of me that - at that moment- I knew what I was doing was what I was put on this earth to be... a writer.

From that moment on I never looked back. I encourage everyone to keep experimenting with life- find your calling and be as honest with yourself as possible. Only in this process can one truly "Live" the life they were meant to live.

The Golden Rules of Friendship

Over the years many of us have all had our fair share of making and losing friends. Some of the those relationships have lingered and stayed strong, others have crashed and burned quicker than a Sarah Palin bid for the presidency. But - what always seems to surprise me- is how I feel when I realize- I have failed in allowing a bad person into my life- and ultimately losing their friendship.

Now, in all fairness, we chose who we let in and out of our lives- and there is absolutely nothing wrong with a failed relationship (friendship or intimate) because not everyone gets along. None of us are bound together by some universal contract. But- what I find hard is that I truly believe in the best of people and hope that they can be somewhat reciprocating when it comes to the "unspoken rules" of friendship.

The rules? you ask. Well- yes. Lets make them up- and say that there are 4 cardinal rules of friendship.

1. You are "there" for your friend. (period)

This one is pretty standard. When they cry- you give the shoulder, when they are sick- you bring them soup, when they are happy- you celebrate with them. When they are upset- you understand and listen- the basics- you get the point.


2. You are mutually and unabashedly supportive of your friend.

When you ask your friend for help- you return the favor. Helping them move, going for a drive, going out, taking them to dinner, doing something you hate. Friends should just... do.

3. You trust your friend.

A good friend will NEVER let you down. So if they are telling you your too drunk- your too drunk. if they are telling you to start hitting the gym- go, if they hate the guy you are dating- there is a reason. A friend should know you inside and out. So you should trust them- they are your protector.

4. You are always "present" in some way shape or form in their lives.

This one is the golden rule in my book. There is nothing worse than having a friend that isn't "present" while you hang out with them. Distracted by the phone, talking about themselves or never asking how your day was. BE PRESENT people! Get to know your good friends- nine times out of ten- they have something to talk to you about.

Now- after all this is said and done- Im sure there can be a few more rules added in- but why? Keep it simple right. More rules than this only apply to relationships. In my opinion- the best of friends are able to maintain these four rules and have a long standing friendship with you. If they don't, then they were just acquaintances.

One Year

On March 27, 2009- I moved to LA to change my life, start a new career and raise the bar on my own personal expectations of who I am.

One year ago I was sleeping on an air mattress in studio in Hollywood- by the grace and kindness of my dear friend Jade- I started my journey. With more lows than highs- more downs than ups- I fought for every ounce of dignity, respect and dollar in my pocket. This town has no mercy and is not for the kind of heart. You must fight for everything you own and everything you do not.

A starry eyed nieve young man- I bounced around trying to fit in where I could. I ended a realtionship and no longer wanted to move forward into another on until I really truel;y discovered who I was going to be. What I discovered along the way was the power of the Universe. What you think will happen- will. What you negately offer to the universe in ways of energy and thought- will only bring negativity to you.

This discovery allowed me to trust the universe in all that I did and chose. No matter what happened along my journey- my focus and ultimate trust in the ways of the universe gave me everything I needed.

So one year later- I survived the hustle. Though far from over- I can with absolute faith say to anyone- that all I have is what I have fought for and made for myself. I remember the people that commented on my inablity to become an Angelino, or that I could survive here. To them- I say thank you. You were the best motivation.

(15) Minutes

Well- it has been excactly two weeks since my tv debut and I must say its a crazy web that Hollywood spins. I dont think in any way that being on a reality show justifies me as any sort of celebrity- but I think my 15 minutes has given me a taste of what that feels like. For most of you you who dont know, I appeared in two episodes of season 3 of Millionaire Matchmaker. My second episode, which I dated an "Eco Millionaire" - put me on the map as the most democratic and patient dater of the universe. He was a bit crazy, to say the least.

The days that followed were sureal- a front page story on the Guam newspaper, The Pacific Daily News, an onslought of Facebook friend requests, Sugar daddy offers, and the best part- free drinks for those wishing to praise me for not walking off the set during my disaster date. What still takes getting used to is people stopping me out in public (ie Target, the grocery store, etc.) and being excited to share thier opinions with me about the show. All of them are very sweet- but it always catches me off guard. Sometimes I get the point and whisper of people - and thats uncomforatble. But I guess its all part of the gig. Taken all with good humor- of course.

"So what now what?" is what im constantly asked- do I want to do more tv? Yes- of course, but what kind? Or do I simply bow out gracefully and go back to being a writer? All this- is yet to be determined.

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Ho'oponopono: I Love You, I'm Sorry, Please Forgive Me, Thank You

Not to long ago my friend Aaron who is just as spiritual and "Universally Oriented"as I am, brought to my attention a Hawaiian word "Ho' oponopono". I had never heard of this and being a fan of "The Secret' he went into explaining where it came from and what it means. The word is an ancient Hawaiian practice of healing and forgiveness. A man by the name of Joe Vitale explains in many of his lectures the exact power of this matra- and I must say its quite moving. Especially as a tool to fight negative energy!

His lecture was beautiful. Now, I am not going to explain too much- as Id like you all to discover it all on your own and experience it - in your own way. So please take advantage- let me know what you think.

Enjoy.

http://yogaofalignment.com/2009/05/20/hooponopono-i-love-you-im-sorry-please-forgive-me-thank-you/

My Millionaire Matchmaker Moment...

Well in case you missed it- it was pretty funny. The first of two appearances of me on Millionaire Matchmaker on Bravo aired almost two weeks ago. Since that small tidbit,  so many old friends have gotten ahold of me- even old teachers, college friends and geeze even random people. The best part is all the support of all my friends and people from Guam- I guess its been a moment since Guam had some good air time. The question is - Was it weird that a gay man brought to TV?

Its hard to believe that that was filmed last fall- it seems like forever ago. Even at work clients are recognizing me- its amazing the power of tv. The scary part is that that was only a small scene- the full episode is yet to come- and I promise you Its gonna be a good one. Though I don't lose a Louboutin- I promise you it will be good. I just pray for good editing. Stay tuned!

Welcome to Hollywood...Again

Well Its hard to believe that it has nearly been a year since this young man packed his bags and left Orange County. In that one year so much has changed. A metamorphasis of many sorts. Strength where there was once weakness, direction replacing indecisiveness and best of all - a better understanding of who I really am.

After a short stint of living in West Hollywood, attempting to reclaim my connection with my fellow gay men, I found myself unsatisfied with that decision. By sheer force of the universe, and a crackhead roommate (literally) - I was forced to find something all on my own. For the first time in my life I live by myself with nobody but myself to answer to or be accountable for. Its an amazing feeling.

For most of my life I felt the need to surround myself with friends, roommates or lovers. I have never been afraid to live by myself- but just never felt the need. I think that after all the craziness in my life- work, relationships, etc. - living by myself is helping me regain my identity- and discover things I never knew about myself.

One thing is for certain- I am certainly glad I am back in Hollywood proper. Being with the boys in WeHo was fun and all- but there is more to discover and be entertained by here... and they have the most amazing Farmers Market too!!!

Well- sorry its been a hot minute- but lots of stories to come, I promise.

Sneak Peak at Millionaire Matchmaker

Dont "Resolve" just.... "DO"

When I thought initially about creating a blog- it was because I have a passion and love for writing. My second thought was because I wanted to share with people my experiences about life- and being absolutely honest to ones self  and who your are, regardless of what your journey may be. The hope would be that my experiences would help bring a solid conversation to the table about life and all its challenges. Secondly, that it would be a great medium for me to show people that life - it can be just as rewarding as it is challenging.

Over the last couple of years I have done some serious growing into what I feel is a genuinely open and experienced young man. Taking everything that I have learned and using it to live my life better. I have always believed that honesty with ones self is the foundation of a good understanding of your life's direction.

But what does that mean?

Fo me it means I live my life without fear.

Taking advantage of every single minute that the Universe has given me- so that when its all said and done, I can say- "I lived a good life".

All these struggles that we go through are part of the journey. How we react, how we get back up when we fall, and how we become stronger from the pain - its all part of our growth as human beings.

It also means living without regret and forging forward. Though sometimes a hard thing to do, I try to spend very little time looking back - and most of the time moving forward. I have often been teased about changing jobs too many times- but thats what I do. If I am not happy- I continue to look for something better. You will instinctively know when something is right for you. Why settle? You have your destination- you know what's best for you- so DO NOT settle. Why not apply for a greater job? Why not send a resume to a better company? Why not?

Ask yourself this proverbial question: If you had a week to live- what would you do without fear today?

The year has started new and you have 360 new days to conquer. Don't resolve anything- just "Do".

Go forth and conquer what YOU want to do with your life.

so proud of me.

Just signed the paperwork to my new apartment today. I emphasize "my" cause this will be my first apartment by myself. All my own- so crazy.

exciting. scary. proud.

Heres to becoming more "David" in 2010- the dawn of my 34th year in life. Looking forward to it.

Resolved- My Vision Board

My Own Apartment

Health

Fitness

Career

Reinvention

My Happy Thought