"This is LIVING!...so LIVE!"

As a young child, whenever things got rough my mother always told me to pray the "Serenity Prayer". ( God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference) The prayer continues a bit more, but I always found that very beginning to be very insightful.

The first two weeks here in LA were very trying on me, and at one point I was in a very dark place. I wasn't sure what to trust anymore. I was feeling very separated from the world, friends and my own personality. "Who am I today" I would ask myself.  I would daydream about who I would become, the job I would have and the friends I would make.  But- truth be told, my strength was wearing thin- and I was certainly in no place to positive about anything.

My friend Jade  took me up to Runyon Canyon, a popular LA trail, to go for a hike/run and remembered being very tired running up that hill. In my head I remembered wanting to slow down and walk, maybe even stop. I said at one point, not knowing my thoughts were starting to take over, "I wish my life would get better"- and without a second to think she said to me " You are living! This is life! Live!" 

I was so shocked at that moment because...she was right. I had spent so much time being upset- I wasn't living- and especially not living in the moment.

We eventually reached the top of the hill and It was gorgeous. The sun was just coming up and the sir was so crisp. People were now coming out from everywhere to partake in the moment of climbing this great hill. There I was though- looking over all of LA, the Hollywood sign just to my right and a sneak peak into some great houses. There I was living...and I made it to the top without quitting.

With that same attitude I approached everything for the next couple of days and was hugely surprised that- once you change your attitude, you change your life. And- as the prayer says when you have the serenity to accept the things you cannot change- you give yourself up from negativity and move forward. 

The next week proved very fruitful and I am very sure that it was because simply stopped being negative and started thinking, doing, and being positive. When bad things happen, they just do, just know its not in your hands- BUT how you proceed is. 

LIVE...LIVE NOW!

What a difference.