The Journey Continues

I have decided that the fear of the unknown has become irrelevant in my life.

Most people have fear of change, taking that first step, or even doing something that they might fail at. I am none of those. Over the course of the last two years, I have been through so much agonizing change (coupled with heartache, broken friendships and plenty of alcohol) that I think that the unknown has become a bit of a comfort. Sometimes- the only thing that has been consistent, has been change. 

Now, on the eve of more change in my life, I find myself in these weird "slow motion" movie moments- where I'm purposely making mental notes of simple freedoms and things that I know I will miss very soon. 

I am moving in about 2 weeks- and what makes matters worst- is I don't know where to, or with who. I'm picturing some crazy journey that is a delicious blend of "My own Private Idaho" and "The Pursuit of Happiness".  Those couldn't be anymore opposite of movies- but I think its appropriate. A struggle of hope and destiny- a young gay man holds on to nothing but the clothes on his back and his dreams...i can see it now!

I think by my next blog I will have more foresight on my journey. Until then...pray for me!