Your Kind of Big Deal... Except to Yourself.

Not too long ago my dear friend Jade reminded me of an old saying that went something like...  " If you ever want to know the end- Take a look at the beginning".

Now for the record, being around Jade is always special because of her positivity, but it was this special moment- I really had to stop and absorb. She always knows what to say- at the right moment. This moment was right on.

It was less than 7 months ago that with a heavy heart and tank half full of courage - I moved to LA. With every ounce of strength I had left- I pushed, struggled and kept on smiling- regardless of my own personal built in critics and the judgmental public. I am a fighter- and I fought- never for a moment thinking of conceding (or renouncing any part of me) for a second.

What's important about this journey so far, is that I promised myself that come what may here in Los Angeles- I would keep true to myself, and I have yet to break that promise. You see, Its easy to get sucked into many things here in LA (or anywhere ) and I see it everyday. The talk of the industry, being an actor, a model, something- someone- who do you know, how can I benefit from knowing you. Its all part of this crazy town- but it is what it is. I cant blame it for anything. After all, it takes two to tango! To be fair- I have met many people who are very grounded and amazingly nice- but there is always a small- really small,  percentage of this personality!

What's hard to understand is how people so easily let go of themselves and who they are. Which is why that bit of wisdom Jade gave me resonated. How do people I know so dearly allow themselves to let material things replace good people and honest conversation. How do people allow "image" to be a part of what they are vs. who they are? Its all trivial I know- but at some point someone has to talk about the elephant in the room. Especially if they "are not someone- or somebody".

So here I sit asking...

At what point in your life is one not capable of reflecting on "How far they have come, Where they are going and If they are happy with the direction?"

the answer... is up for discussion.