When you are in your thirties- starting anything over is questionable. You become a creature of habit. Weary of anything that is dramatic or turbulent- i.e. relationships, people, and careers.
When you are a thirty three year old man who has worked in retail for a good part of your life- the word "good" being the understatement of your vocabulary- you are what some would say type casted.
Are you any better than the last job you worked? Are you a bankable investment of an employee? Most importantly- Can you (and Sandra Bullock) recover from the last string of bad movies (or jobs) that you had? Can you become as great as you once were?
I found myself wandering Robertson Boulevard today - motivated and eager to work amongst the coolest retailers again. I want o work in luxury, I want to work in fashion and I want to work only 5 days a week and be off by 6p.m. everyday. Okay- maybe that last one was a stretch- but it was worth a shot. The point is I know what I want and it is a non-negotiable that I settle for anything less.
I find myself struggling with what people must think of the last couple jobs I have had. As if i can just hear what people are saying about me- judging- like I cant get my act together. The truth is- I have put 200% into every job I have had- like all the others. I know that i shouldn't care about what people think- but when you are a Virgo who scrutinizes your life by every detail- you are your worst enemy. I feel as if I'm explaining myself to my readers- and I know that's not necessary. But- I seriously just wanna work on things that are more fun like love, traveling, christmas, etc. You get where Im going with this.
So- with a heavy heart and a cup full of ambition- I say to myself " Let's do this". I think that I win the award for "Most Diligent"- when I think of the crap I've been through in the last two years, I seriously wonder why I haven't become an alcoholic!
So today is October 2nd 2009- I gave myself the month-31 days- to make change. As of day 2, I am hopeful.
To be continued.
1 comments:
You continue to blame the jobs. They were bad. You have had more jobs in the past 2 years than most people have in a lifetime and you didn't exactly leave any of them willingly. Why is it always the jobs fault and never David's? Taking responsibility for your life and your actions are the first steps to growing up and becoming a responsible adult. When are you going to do that?
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